My Awsome Amazing Journal of GREATNESS!!!

Ok my life is still non stop crazy awsomeness. But Lets see... School is good, Im barely staying on top of my projects slipping by with decent grades. Work sucks like always, I have just enough hours to get by with just enough money to pay for rent and take care of myself. Jay said he will try and get me a raise though and that would be great! Well my parents have finally moved back to Michigan and my little brother is going insane without high speed internet. But I think that he will survive because my parents got him a jeep. and my older brother is going through crap but he is doing pretty good I guess... he needs to come to tampa and party with me and my friends. I've been hanging out with greg too much lately, I think I need to focus more on school and work.... and nicole and I are getting our own appartment, and Im super bored at work, so....yeah, things are cool.

Okies, just hopping on here to let myself be distracted for a little while. I have to finish 2 essays, but I really dont want to.. Well its only finals >.< lol! Nah, I will get them done and they will be good too! Wow, I have a serious lack of focus...I cant concentrate on anything right now. There is too much going on Im happy and excited and curious and worried and confused and angry and frusterated and and and and CRAZY! Hmmm thats about it I guess I cant wait for break when I dont have to worry about anything I can just have fun!!!! ^^ But I should really get my essays done so I can maybe have some fun later... I just felt the need to work out some of this RAWR-NESS!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

OK peoples! I have insane finals, I got sick, my car is dead, and there are some people really pissing me off! But....Im still happy! and kinda excited, maybe i have gone so far off that there just isnt any point in being upset. Im sure everything will work out ok! and it is really nice outside, I think I will go out later and enjoy it!

Lately there are some people who seem to think i have become a bad person because of the people I hang out with and I have been skipping class, ((but only for good resons, like being sick, and..um... free food?)). WEll I have some news for you! Parties are not EVIL!!!! and CLUBS ARE FUN!!! Come on people! This is college! Let loose a little, enjoy yourself! Have fun and dont be afraid to try somthing new ;D!!! Yeah so I procrastinate, and I stay out late, and this spring break I plan on ((do I dare say it?)) going to parties with ((-GASP-)) alcohol, OMG Krystal has become sooo naughty! whetever will I do?

If ya havent guessed already there is alot of drama going on,and I am feeling mischievous, Im planning on doing somthing that will surprise everyone. Something no one would expect me to do becuase there arent many people who REALLY know me. Just to make a statement, get a reaction, because this is what I am really like! Depending on how much people piss me off this week will decide what I do....heh heh heh...

Oh yes, and krystal has a new crush maybe? I dont know, I dont know about this one...XD!!!!! Because guys in general lately have been driving me crazy. I have too many guy problems with TOO MANY GUYS!!!! But ya know there is always that one that comes along and surprises me... But yeah Im tired of predictable, nice guys that try so hard to please me and the random losers...thats just annoying and boring right now. And I am vain and mean :P HA HA HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA But yeah I found myself thinking about this one guy and I realized some things and was like, ooohhh? How...interesting ;D! so now Im curious! and again we will see what happens!!!

Oh! and Im pretty sure I have ADD... yeah... LUV YOU LOTS!!!!!!

Oh man!
For a long time I really wondered why people are always so protective of me... cuz it true people are! So I always tried to act independent and I often push people away, but its not true at all. I guess until I warm up to you I can be a really shy and reserved person.
But Anyways that is not the point I was trying to make, I realized something while I was out today by myself, these really creepy guys in a van were yelling for me and trying to talk to me n stuff and then they started following me, and when I was in my car and they got in the other lane and were right beside me and were still trying to bother me, and I felt really REALLY uncomfortable! I just ignored them and turned on the next street.
I think I actually felt kinda scared, those guys were really creepy...and gross. But I wasnt really scared I just really wanted someone to be there with me. I hate being by myself and, well, I felt really lonely. I had no one to go to. I just went back to my apartment and again no one is here. (not even my dog to comfort me...how sad)I feel really lonely right now, just alone if ya know what I mean. Like I have some really great friends and I love them lots! but they all go home to their families n stuff and I feel really detached from my family and well that is my own choice. But like nicole, she always goes to wally and everyone just seems to have someone and I guess I just really want someone........or at least a hug ^^ geeeez, what am I saying!?! I am such a loser! lol I almost got depressed over that and thats no fun right!?

So I guess my problem right now, besides the massive amounts of homework is the type of people I am attracted to... Wally says Prick Assholes or something like that, and he is kinda right and i will tell you why! I am atracted to people who have personality traits that I idealize, for example I am insecure so I really admire confidence, borderline arrogance. Attitude is really important to me.
And I have recently met a guy who I am starting to like, he has a lot of personality traits that i admire but some that should have disqualified him instantly, and I wonder what I am doing even considering him... But I always try too look for the best in people... in general I like to be around people I admire, like jen for example who has become one of my really good friends, she can be really selfish and pushy and opinionated and...wait good things right ;D, She is also really confident and it is easy for her to become close to people...I am way too shy.. anyway i am tired so i will go take a nap and then get to work on my project....and not be lonely... you will give me a hug right?

Hmmmm... I feel really excited today!!! ^_^ *happy dance*

I had to work for a couple hours, and the printer at school isnt working and I have a night class, but Im still happy! Maybe I am weird but I hope somthing super good happens! I still have tons of homework but I will get it all done!

Oh man... I had a super weird dream... I had a dream that I went to get like senior pictures done (except for college) with nicole, and on the way we stopped by this fruit stand this old guy had, and he had all these weird typed of fruits and vegetables and things that we had never seen before and my parents we there and they were buying stuff and making me try it. And this fruit stand was next door to the family of one of the guys I have a crush on... And there were these dogs running by, and then the family came over and one of them was riding a lawn mower...o_O Then nicole and I had to leave becuase we were going to this HUGE wal-mart/k-mart type place. And at the place they had some event going on and when we got there we were just looking around. and they were having contests and were giving away prizes, and we saw this guy i know and he won a prize, it turned out to be a kids bike and he gave it to a little boy. and nicole was like "see he is a really nice guy! You should have gone out with him!" and then nicole's parents and other family members showed up...and things got weird, it turns out nicole had a gay uncle she didn't know about..yeah we met him... and so nicole and I and her family were all leaving to go someplace else and I noticed the guy I shouldnt like was walking around with his friends, he saw me and was like "hey!!!"...and then were we all walking across this HUGE parking lot and then nicoles gay uncle was all of the sudden wearing spandex pants and like that half cut tank top thing and swet bands... and he was like "Time to work out!" and he started doing stretches...and it wasnt pretty....and some other stuff happend and it just kept getting more and more weird...
and....
its really cold in my appartment I think I will go outside because it is so nice out today! ^^

As for my guy issues, I only have to say that right now I am interested in someone I shouldnt be (dont worry its not because he has a girlfriend or anything like that, im talking about personality traits) ... hmm what to do? I wonder about and things like that sometimes and why shouldn't i like him? does it really matter? I think it probably does, but maybe its because I dont know him that well, but Im impressed that he is able to keep my interest longer then most... yeah yeah I dont dwell on these things too long, though I am curious... should I give him a chance?

lol!

YUP YUP!!! Krystal is not doing here homework like she should...Insted I am posting stuff on live journal when I should be doing somthing constructive like working on my perspective project for daves class or researching 'social responsibility' for my essay, or finnishing my typography or my idea board for image manipulation... yeah, I've become a bad student lately. Jen is a bad influence on me!!!! ((Jen is my super crazy awesome asian friend, I <3 her lots!!!)) But I dont blame her, I am just overwhelmed right now with everything. I just wont sleep for the next two days because Im going to be up all night working on my projects.. lol! Good bye sleep! We will meet again someday!!!!

Ok!!! There arent any new crushes in my life... oh wait, yes there are!!! ;D
Lets see... I still like the same people I liked before, one has left though... and I stopped talking one of the guys I liked, He just became like everyone else...and I got bored with him. Jen wants to set me up with one of her asain friends as stalker repellent... ((yes I still have stalkers)) But right now, Im liking someone I know I shouldnt.... ohhh Krystal is so bad... I know better but Im curious and cant help it!! Soooo we'll see what happens, but you all know me and Im not very serious about anything, maybe I should try to be more serious... trying....trying....trying... yeah right! Like thats ever gonna happen!!! Im tired of being single, but I dont think there is anyway I could be sirious about a relationship right now... I know Im super in-experianced and naive and all that junk... and I wonder why anyone would even put up with me. :P but Im full of surprises and again I guess we'll see what happens!!!

Hmmm... my car is practically dead and my dad is going to be giving me his truck, Im not too excited about that but I will be happy to have a vehical that actually works. Im sure I will like it... eventually... once I get used to it... My parents are moving back to michigan so I will finally actually be on my own! They will be too far away to keep me on a leash!! WOOO!!!! FREE at last!!!! and my computer sucks, I should get a new one but I have no money.... :( oh wells, at least I have a computer right?!

SO Im not letting myself get depressed right now! There are only 2 or 3 weeks of class left and I keep finding things to be happy about! Im such a loser... But I have awesome friends!!! I love you all uber lots!!!!

Yup thats how I feel right now, just like a depressed poogle. I am a bit overworked lately and I've probably been staying out a bit too late. But I've gotta play and have fun, I'm not the type of person who can work ALL the time, I would go crazy! Or at least crazier then I already am.... So anyways Right now I am depressed becuase I am overloaded with work and homework, and Im tired cuz I didnt sleep and I have too many guy issues. I really shouldnt complain about people liking me. But I think I am an awful person, I may act nice and I am nice butI am also very mean and vain. So, I dont really know what to say about that, other then the fact that maybe Im the one who has issues. The last guy I liked, well it was more of a kinda like, at least I liked him more then everyone else at the time. Well, anyway, I was talking to him for a while and went out on "A" date with him, and, I dont know I was talking to him for a couple of weeks and I got bored. Thats kinda sad, I got bored with him so I dont really care any more. Wow.... So anyway I just found out about like three more people who like me these past few weeks, and vain krystal could really care less (((HOW CAN I BE SO MEAN!!!!))) because they really dont stand a chance... ((OUCH)).... AHERAH SDFHASDHF AHSDF LASHDF JKAS cant type, RARGH!!!!! So, I dont know what I want right now.... I dont want to hurt these people, and I just wonder why, why they could ever like someone like me, when I am so awful, when I think the way I do.... Maybe I should just put all the names of the people that like me into a hat and draw one out and call him my boyfriend......ARGH SO FRUSTERATED!!!!!!!

Its valentines day!!! woooooo!!!!

I dont know what to say.....
yup!
I've been messing with people alot online lately, and my life is overwhelmed with homework. Alex doesnt talk to me anymore, cant say I blame her, tho she does need to get over it! WAH!!!!!!!! ok now that that is out of the way, Kingdom Hearts 2, comes out in MARCH!!!!! Hurray for the COMPLETE AND TOTALLY AWESOME BADASS and HAWTNESS of the FF CHARACTERS!!!! like ya know auron...and cloud.... YAY!!!! and I plan on spending spring break with nicole in Ft Walton Beach, its midterms right now, but spring break will be here sooner then you think! We still want to make insane movies based off of video games, it be fun!!! And there is one more new thing ^^ but I tell about that later.... XD!!!!!!

ok, its before noon, and Ive gotten three valentines ^^
Im so happy right now!!!!

But I still think some people are total idoits and NO ONE!!!! I REPEAT NO ONE can be like me!!! CUZ I be the great and awesome and totally hawt ~Krystal~ !!!!

heck yea!!!!
Im thinking about starting a fanclub!!! you wanna be a member?

Where to start, well first of all alot of things have changed since I last posted anything. It is now the winter quarter at AI and I have made lots of new friends. Also, January has gone by so fast! Its almost february, and that means its almost Valentines Day!!! Every year I've gotten some type of valentine, usually flowers or somthing, but Im not so sure this year. Maybe though, its nice to hope ^^

Also, its about time I got a boyfriend, I dont really care right now though. I will just deal with things as they happen, I dont know why I feel presseured usually Im so easy going about things like this. Those people who know me very well know what I like, and even thought there are a few people I kinda like right now, I think I will still just wait and see what happens. Or maybe I will, in gal terms, make a play for the person my friends like more, seeing as Im having issues deciding for myself. Maybe I should be more serious... yeah right!

Anyways I have to work now, so I'll probably post somthing later!

Awwwww! The puppy is so cute!

Well I suppose its about time I started this journal cause I've had it for a while but havent wrote anything....lets see I guess I'll write things that I should have put in here earlier to bring you all up to date. Lets start with a little explanation of the people I will be talking about. ...nevermind, your going to have to wait...INSTEAD I will tell you about my school...OK!! I go to the Art Institute, Its a really nice school with lots of crazy people. There is an Atrium, with lots of fake looking plants. The bathrooms are nice but the toilets here at the school are kinda scary. When you start to stand up they flush automatically, well its kinda cool, BUT SCARY its like they are trying to suck you down and eat you alive...I think next time I go to the bathroom at school I will bring like a pitch fork or baseball bat with me and then beat it to death if tries to eat me.....mwha hah ah ah ha ha ha ........right, moving on...there is a tv thing in the lobby that is always flashing pictures and playing crappy music....It gets really annoying especially because I work at the welcome desk which is in the lobby with the awful music...Other then that there are offices and classrooms and computer labs, a library ...and the cage, the cage is the room where students go to print things and check out equipment. There are also hot guys who work in the cage, yes, yes...you will be hearing alot about the cage...OK NOW FOR PEOPLE!!!!

Lets start with my roomates, My roomates are Alex (a girl, her ful name is Alexandra), and Nicole.

Alex is in graphic design, and she is a always do her homework, go to bed early, smart, fun and nice person. She likes to listen to all sorts of music and we like to sing and dance badly to it. She doesn't like to cook...

Nicole is in Animation With me!!! YAY!! She is a random crazy fun carefree sorta person. She plays video games and watches cartoons with me and we have lots of crazy conversations which make people listening to them wonder about us. Nicole likes to cook....usually....

Wally is Nicoles boyfriend...he used to have a crush on me, and now thinks I am annoying which is ok cause he has red hair (I strongly dislike red hair) and is slightly feminine...I said I wouldn't call him ghey. Any way he is a cool person, he is smart...but he acts like a know-it-all sometimes which is annoying. Like, I wanted to make rice balls, so I called my little brother to find out how...and wally came over and was like, "your making rice balls?...Its better if you use this kind of rice....and you should let it sit for a while...and you have to do this and that".....and then I was like 'what makes you an expert on making RICE BALL!?! They're RICE BALLS!?! and HOW WOULD YOU KNOW!!!!!'...so any way wally is alright..he is crazy like nicole so they make a good match.

Igor is the object of Alex's affection....or he was.....I might have messed things up.....*sad*.....Well anyway...Igor is from the Ukraine..um no idea how to spell that..He is in IMD (Interactive Media Design) i think...He is a really cool easy going kind of guy. He is not that bad looking but he smokes and lets see how I messed things up....well I will tell you later...

Anniryn is my old roomate she is a cool person.

ummm I'll finish this later....